i really really really hate that i'm such a damn jealous person. i mean, it really gets in the way. i've always been like that and i dunno why. i get jealous in my relationship. i get jealous that my best friend has other best friends..and lately, the latter has been bothering me the most. i know she needs people to support her and that i can't physically be there to step in...and that freaking kills me every day. like i know in my heart she knows that i would be in a heartbeat, but i can't lie..it hurts to see conversations on her facebook. i can't help it and i hateeee it!!!! like i want to live next door to her. i want to go to the park with her and the kids. i want to do all of that and more with her. but i can't. fuck you distance. i hate you with all that i am :(
i really am sorry. i tried apologizing in advance, but i know that doesn't make it better. i really wish we lived closer..it would make life easier on both of us. i love you, and i am going to def try to be better about talking. it will be april before you know it love <3
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